Wednesday, April 26, 2006

More Nervous than Me

So, we have 3 days left til the wedding.  What I want to know is how many people are scared out of their wits before their wedding, because me and Gord have heard nothing but "are you scared?"  "ooh its your last week of freedom" and " are you sure your not gonna back out from nerves?".  I mean, WTF?  I"m starting to feel like the only people in the world who the idea of Marriage seems natural and exciting, but not in the slightest bit nerve-racking.  Gord's Co-workers are really starting to bug him with this kinda talk.  Of course he is in the works yard with all the middle aged, machine driving, drinkin with the guys, married for 15 years kinda people, so its kind of to be expected.  but still. give it a rest already

I have no problem with feeling unsure or scared or nervous or anything.  Not even about the prepareations for the wedding event. I mean, I have my dress, flowers, pastor, paperwork. so everything else is details. heck, even if the pastor gets stuck in Arizona where he is on holiday until friday and can't make it, we will just call another one, or find a JOP as soon as we can.  meh. It will all work out somehow.

What I wonder is if this lack of nerves is because the actual wedding part is so casual and generally as simple as I could get away with. I have no professionals of any kind, its all family, and very small.  I could see being much more stressed out if I was trying to have a big formal detail heavy type affair.  Maybe that stress is what people see as nerves.  hmmm..

I just don't get it


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